Facing adversity part 2 

Posted: October 9, 2016 in Uncategorized

EPHESIANS 4:2-3 Always be humble and gentle.  Be patient with one another,  making allowance for each others faults because of your love. Make every effort to keep yourselves United in the spirit,  binding yourselves together with peace.  

I am not perfect.  People are not perfect.  It is not my job to seek out things that benefit me-it is,  however,  my duty to seek out a relationship with Jesus,  to seek out the Holy spirit and to better myself for others.  It’s going to be messy,  I’m going to mess up but it’s about everyone else-not me.  No. Matter what society tells me,  we live in a me me me society.  

A while back I opened my heart to a feeling I was feeling-I was personally feeling invisible in my church,  feeling as if I’m annoying,  feeling as if there is cliques going on all around me.  Why do we do church?  It all comes down to the good news for both Jew and gentile.  And the church,  which is people not a building,  was messy from day 1 and is still a great big mess today.  And that’s OK!  I can’t even imagine how fun church was after Jesus death when Jews and gentile had to mingle.  They were totally different and they clashed.  Today people still have issues.  Because we are human!  There’s still issues with Ra e,  background,  culture barriers,  denominations,  politics,  people who don’t practice what they preach,  society status etc.  

It’s not,  nor has ever been about me and the enemy lies and he is good at it.  He’s good at making me feel left out,  making me feel invisible,  making me feel like I should not share or talk because I will be judged, making  me feel entitled.  

We are ALL going to get off did,  we are ALL going to get gossiped about,  we are ALL going g to be misunderstood,  we are ALL going to mess up.  We are ALL going to get heartbroken.  Because we are ALL imperfect.  

Someone is going to complain about the music. 

Someone is going to complain about the sound. 

Someone is going to complain about your kids behaviour. 

Someone is going to avoid you. 

Someone is going to accuse you of something. 

Someome is going to complain.  

I complain.  You complain. I’m not perfect.  You are not perfect.  

If you go back to my previous blog it probbaly sounds like I’m complaining.  I faced anxiety after posting it and I’m going to face anxiety for posting this too.  I’m not sorry for what I wrote because I needed to write it.  And maybe someone got offended by what I wrote-maybe I was even wrong with what I wrote-but it needed to be written so that I can personally heal and get out of a run I’ve been in for a very very long time. 

I’m not going to wait around awkwardly for people to come to me… Oh no.  I’m going to bring my awkward strait to them.  God sends the most awkward people to me and gives me the gift of tolerance and patience… A gift to this day my husband does not understand.  If he can give me tolerance and patience for some of the most awkward people then he can grant strength to my church congregation to.  I have the capabilities to fish out people too and be an encourager to them and invite them to hang out.  Because in the end it’s not about me and never has.  It’s OK for me to have feelings and it’s OK for me to vent to God-because truth be told when you start turning all your venting to God that’s when he’s able to change YOUR heart and you’d be surprised at what follows.  

Don’t leave a church because you get hurt by someone just keep putting those roots deeper in the ground… And be a flower in the drought.  

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